Saturday, September 08, 2012

the future

As of today, I’m not working for my former employer. I worked there for 7 years, good and bad, and it’s been an important part of my life. I stuck through a lot of commercial endeavors in the hopes we could get back to the pure research I was most interested in, but it seems that’s not going to happen. I’ll be the first to admit I was not the most enthusiastic on our current customer-focused projects, and that’s what’s going on right now, so perhaps this is for the best.

I’m overwhelmed at the moment at all the possible actions I could take next. I’ve spent so long with a checklist of responsibilities in my head every morning and other people’s goals and pressure on me that I barely know how to imagine what I want to do next.

This is a shock, but I knew this situation was coming sooner or later. I’m not responsible for anything anymore but my own actions, and while this is about to be a financial adventure, it’s freeing in other ways.

I’m giving myself until Monday, but then I’m making a list. There’s a lot of stuff I have thought about doing over the last few years, and here’s my chance to grab a few and do them properly.